These decisions used to overwhelm me. They used to torture me and always force me to re-think them over and over and over again. What am I going to do next fall? Where will I be living? How will I pay for it? What career path do I want to follow? How am I going to get there? Am I even smart enough? Is all my effort in vain?
I could sit here for days telling you exactly what I want to do. But the chances are very high that I'll just change my mind about it next week. This is what frustrates me.
However, I do know one thing: I know that I want to do something different. I don't want to go to college, get a degree in something I'll never use, and be a secretary for some creepy lawyer who hits on me everyday. I don't want to meet the guy of my dreams when I'm 19, get married, and be a mom at 20. I don't want to sing in a church choir and teach elementary school during the week.
While all of these things are wonderful (except the creepy lawyer), I can't see me doing any of that. The thought of living a safe life repulses me! I want to impact what people think. I'm always frustrated with the news, media, and politics that is putting crap into people's minds and leading them astray. I always say, "Why doesn't someone do something about it?! Why won't someone just grow a pair and be the one to step up to the plate in the midst of a lost world?!"
But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I wanted to be that person. I want to have the responsibility of leading people into a direction that would bring glory and honor to Jesus Christ.
How am I going to do that? HA! Don't ask me...I have no clue. I've had my heart set on a major in Journalism/Media for a while, and it still appeals to me greatly. But There are so many fields that journalism leads to, and I don't know which one to choose. It's all so..overwhelming.
On a good note, I am so much farther than I was a year ago. On November 16, 2007 at 12:11 am, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. Now I have some type of idea..and I'm running with it.
"Everybody is just a stranger, but that's the danger in going my own way."
-John Mayer
I could sit here for days telling you exactly what I want to do. But the chances are very high that I'll just change my mind about it next week. This is what frustrates me.
However, I do know one thing: I know that I want to do something different. I don't want to go to college, get a degree in something I'll never use, and be a secretary for some creepy lawyer who hits on me everyday. I don't want to meet the guy of my dreams when I'm 19, get married, and be a mom at 20. I don't want to sing in a church choir and teach elementary school during the week.
While all of these things are wonderful (except the creepy lawyer), I can't see me doing any of that. The thought of living a safe life repulses me! I want to impact what people think. I'm always frustrated with the news, media, and politics that is putting crap into people's minds and leading them astray. I always say, "Why doesn't someone do something about it?! Why won't someone just grow a pair and be the one to step up to the plate in the midst of a lost world?!"
But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I wanted to be that person. I want to have the responsibility of leading people into a direction that would bring glory and honor to Jesus Christ.
How am I going to do that? HA! Don't ask me...I have no clue. I've had my heart set on a major in Journalism/Media for a while, and it still appeals to me greatly. But There are so many fields that journalism leads to, and I don't know which one to choose. It's all so..overwhelming.
On a good note, I am so much farther than I was a year ago. On November 16, 2007 at 12:11 am, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. Now I have some type of idea..and I'm running with it.
"Everybody is just a stranger, but that's the danger in going my own way."
-John Mayer
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